Well, it is 12:30 am and I can not get to sleep. I feel like writing, but I don't know what I want to write about, so I just going to do a free write, which is something I have not done in a long time.

I think that I am going to miss our ward after we move. We have a cooking night once a month, that the bishops wife is over, that I never miss. It is so much fun getting together in the kitchen and making things that I would never have thought of to try, but most of the time tastes really great. I like to go mainly for the grown up time though. Twice now I have not gotten home until after 11 pm because of talking to one of the other sisters. I ended up talking to the bishops wife this last time, and it was great. They have raised 4 boys, and she has some great advice for some of the things we are starting to come up against. And she has the kind of personality that is refreshing - no pretense to perfection, and she gets right down to the point, just like the bishop. I am going to miss them terribly. You know, moving is hard for me on an emotional level at times. It takes me at least a year to get used to a new ward. I have found this out since I moved down to Texas, and have been married. I hope that the transition goes better this time though. Hey, we are even moving stakes!

One thing that I do want to do is to start making goal again. I actually have a journal for that, but since our housing situation became so crazy, that all went out the window for a while. I almost feel like I can not make good goals until we are moved and settled. But you know what, I have just had an epiphany! It doesn't matter! I should always have goals. You know what, tomorrow I will sit down and get back on track. I always feel better about life when I have goals and I am achieving them. The great things that young women's teaches, right?:) I think that one thing I am going to work on is being more positive. Even though life can be rough, like it has been for the last 1 1/2 years for us, I can still count my blessings. I am very impressed with my friends wife. I just got done reading though their blog, and she is SO positive, though they seem to have had some crazy stuff of their own. I want to be more like that, and I think that that is something that can be learned and but into practice in every one's life.

As I was reading my scriptures tonight, I started Alma. One of the things that really stuck out to me was when they mentioned "idolatrous, or idleness". I had never looked at idleness as idolatrous before, but at that moment it made sense. This is another thing that I am going to work on. You may say to yourself, but she has three small children. Well, I still have a lot of time where I have chosen to be idle. This is probably part of why we ended up having to move. But I am going to work on this as well.

Well, I had better get going. I think that I am finally tired. Amazing how that happens when you free yourself of some of your thoughts! Thank you for bearing with my craziness!